i cant even tell who is who anymore
One more exam to go and i’m free to draw 24/7.
sadly this shitty feeling wrecked me right before going to sleep
There are some artists that rouse your envy and summon unwelcome moods.
And there are those other artists that, no matter how advanced they are compared to you, you admire them with all your heart. You adore their art, and each artwork is somewhat like a gift dedicated to you. You don’t really wish to surpass them but you only wish to learn.
Jealousy is undesired, right?
Regardless, in the end, envy slows you down, rids you from the enjoyment of creating, hinders your progress and makes you denigrate yourself.
Although, that envy can be used to your advantage. With that envy, twist it and decide whether you want to give up or if you wish to rise above yourself. Whether you wish to challenge your skills and fuel them with the routine of practice or leave your previous efforts in the dust.
That envy can be turned into arduous enthusiasm. And while you’re overcome by that passion, you’ll recognize your talent. You’ll get rid of that horrible feeling and you’ll remember yourself once more.
It’s truly a saddening cycle, when ardour alone doesn’t work.
Once in a while, it’s fine to take a break. It’s fine to set your instruments down, to let them rest as you fortify your mind.
And once you’re ready, you’ll resume your mission. A mission that sharpens your skills. A mission where you’ll only perceive the journey, and not the destination.